I cant stop myself from missing you.
I've ignored all those sms you sent.
I rly wanted to reply them.
i dont know, i dont know, i dont know
Its hurting me
I wna cry out loud.
11.55 pm, I cant sleep

Tears are rolling down like no one's business
I would only want to cry in the night.
No one would ever notice.
& the next day, I would be so fine

I rly rly rly miss you
I promised you ..
to be your daugther.
Yes, back to our daddy&daugther
from a stead, back to being my daddy.
Its so hard.

Sorry, I cant.
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wo zai ni de yan li
yi rang shi shen me ?


Yesterday ...
Was Fine I guessed ?
I tried my best to be happy.
I rly did luhs.
Im not sad anymore (:
rly, im not.
cze I've such a wonderful friends who are always there for me (:
rly thanks yeahs ? :D
IM FINE ALR.
I CAN DO WITHOUT HIM (:


REFLECTION :D
lilian, stephanie & me
cant see anything, i know la =l


TEY ZHISHENG ! :DD


ChiaYueNian


ManPang


Im smiling like I used to (:


This is what I call,
artistic :DD


retarded :D


& thank you clarence
for that vodka :DD
F&N plus vodka
nice nice nice (:
ahahs :D
I drank half in one shot
& hell, my tummy's in pain =l
bring me more on monday ~~ :D


TODAY (:
dannson msg'd me in the morning (:
Hell do I miss'd him !
& he changed.
Change for the better ofcourse :D
all thanks to memememe (:
He's now a faithful stead
& He's rly devoted to her ~~ :DD

took some pictures before going to school :DD





YuanYun didnt attend school today D:
She sprained her ankle =l
get well soon girl.
I miss'd your craps & lame jokes la (:

Maths was boring.
& blast that alicia far far away.
She got full marks D:
While I only got 19
like wth ~

English&Science
were all blahs blarhs bllhhsxz
I've forgotten.
wo dui bu mei de tong xi mei
you ren he ying xiang :D

After Science,
went to find Rebecca <3
& I passed her the ring (:
Rebecca Wifey/hubby , ai wo ma ?
:DDDD
& so many people is jealous wor ! :DD

Recess'd with ChongYiJie& her mates :DDDD
She & her craps.
its been so long since I hanged out with her le la ~
She&Sihui's like ..
playing like siao gina. :DD

Skipped chinese with Stephanie :D
Went to the library instead (:
Hell, so cold cans !
& the best part,
TeacherYuan dont know ! (:
ahahahs :D
he's dumbdumbdumb

Went down to the music room during HomeRoom
I thought we were doing CME sia D:
ohwell =l
Watched IceAge :D
& Hell, ManPang Showing attitude cans.
fuckhim, hell of a bastard
& gelin got piss'd with his bloody attitude
blahs !
Lilian got carried away by some rainbow game in Nicholas's hp :D
gelin&shuxian were replying their letters.
& I said I will be back on Wednesday right ?
ahahhs :D
SEXAY GELIN HO ! :DD





Find Cleo&Jabez after school.
she wanted to get her PrePaid card.
Waited for them at the 88,358,359 bus stop there.
& Hell, sway sway saw Joel
Fuck him big la ~
I see him jiu scaredded liao cans !

Slacked at Mcd for awhile
Saw anna (:
She's a babe :DD
Cleo came to my house
& we started mugging (:
I DONT LIKE HISTORY LA !
i cant memorized anything !
people, save me !
MrTeo ! help me ! D:

Rly In Crazy Hanging A Retarded Daddy
Stop asking me if Im angry with you anot.
Its rly irritating.
I wna forget you.
& You said it yourself.
forgetting you its better.
Im trying real hard now.
So please, stop asking me.
If I continue on messaging you like this.
This feelings will never fade away.

I will am Strong
I live on with my life
without your love
without your care
without your jealousy

Now I wont be afraid of you getting angry anymore
No matter how many boys I talked to.
You wont bloody care.
Yes, Im happy with it
& thank god that you finally have that courage
to tell me, that you've lost that feelings for me

My heart beated ever so fast when I see you
Im always there, looking up
wondering if you were looking back at me
wo zhi xiang yao xihuan ni (:
bu ku yi jie de xihuan ni, ke yi ma ?

Im aware of the concequences.
I know, in the end, I will be hurt.
But liking you seems so ... wonderful (?)
wo hen xiang yi lai ni.
ju zhao ni de xinfu.
wo hui zai yi bian, shou hu ni de :D
I'll leave when the time is right (:


tmrw's 30th ! (:
its the day :D
JOELYNTANYIYING & JASMINEENGHUIMIN ('s)
yeps (:
sorry darling, i cant go SP find you le D:
sorry, rly sorry.
forgive me xP
& you dont ever go cut yourself again okay !
its rly heartbreaking luhs ~
promise me ma ?
no matter how irresistable it is.
you still cannot cut !
if cant tahan, then just smoke or drink. -.-
DONT CUT !
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TO MADELINE
im okay le ! (:
thank you for your concern (;
xiexie ni
you're always the best (:

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TO XIUWEI
oh its not your name la
you see wrongly -.- :D

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TO LILIAN (:
wow, first time ..
I felt so loved by you leis ! :DD
Stop blaming him
Its not totally his fault
Im at fault too
thinking that he would actually change for a pathetic me ?
& hell, Im not acting that Im okay.
Im rly okay (:
He's History :DD
dont be angry with him alright ? =l
IM BACK TO MY OLD SELF (:
get well soon ! :D

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TO GELIN :D
ahahs :D
as I said, Im okay le (:
thank you for your love la ~~~~
ahahahs :D

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Its your name that I'll always rmb
I will not wait for you like I used to.
shi ju le ni, er yong you ni yao de zi you
wo yuan yi (:
I'll do whatever for you
If its makes you happy, i rly can.
cze all I want to see.
Is a smile on your face

ni tu rang chuang qin wo de shi jie.
shou li kai, jiu li kai
na wo ne ?

4 times, I've rejected you four times.
& Hell, Yes I feel so bad.
cze Im afraid you'll be bored with me.
I guess, its all too late.

Letting you go will be hard.
& I know. I cant
dont you worry, I'll be happy without you.
happier than before
relaxing more than before.
Im free, You're Free (:

you said , you liked me.
rlly liked me.
Hell, You're kidding me
You like me , is your want
& i love you, is my need
Im sick&tired of this alr ..

Dont Msg me anymore
I dont want your sorry's
sorry wont do any good, will it ?
other than sorry, what can you still say ?
Im not your toy.
Im not your prize.
just go

I rlly trusted you.
& thinking that you'll change ..
change for the better, because of me.
you never proven it to me.
how wrong can i get ?
you'll never change.
cze its you, RichardZhangZhe

I've lost trust in you.
I cant bring myself, to trust you anymore.
I dont wna be your anyone or anywho
I dont want to know your things anymore
cze your everything is no longer important to me
& too, your everything hurts.

Im not angry at you.
Im just disappointed.
for all those things you said to me.
were never to be true, right ?
If you have alr lose that feelings for me.
say it loud.
tell me, straight in my face.
I DONT LIKE YOU ANYMORE
this way, i wont be like this state.

When I first recieved that msg
I was wondering ..
why cant you just say it right in my face ?
& through a sms ?
why why why ?
I wna hear the way you say " lets breakup "
ZHANGZHE, NI SHI SHI JIE SHANG HEN STUPID DE REN.

& thank lord , for giving me such a wonderful bunch of friends (:
TanYuanYun <3
Tan LiLian <3
AngXiuWei <3
AliciaSng (:
ClarenceTang (:
ChiaYueNian (:
SiewCheeWai (:
RebeccaLimNiPing ! <3
Jackie (:
JabezKoh :D
thankyou, for being there.
when I needed help (:
rlly, thanks (:

rang wo zai ku dou yi tian, ke yi ma ?
wo zhen de, zhen de .. hen bushung wo zi ji

Give me time, & I'll leave you alone.
I dont need your sympathy
& i show it to you that I can survive without you.
wo hui yi rang, wang ji ni de.
wang ji wo men yong you de yi jie

Had EnglishComposition & Oral today.
blahs.
I did finish in 45 mins time ?
:DD
Paper start at 8.01 & I finished at 8.45
(: & zz zz
I went to sleep luhs.
Once, I opened my eyes.
& I saw some figure walking pass our class.
so look like richard cans.
wanting to take another look.
but he's gone alr. oh well.
I went back to sleep :D

so , yeahs.
it was him (:
anyway, paper ends at 9.46
& we had our Oral at 10.15
Hell, I was like the last one ?
Blahs. fucking hell it was so darn bored la !
12.30 , my turn finally came.
like wth cans. D:
i hate my index number la ~
191919191919191919
& MANPANG ASKED ALICIA FOR STEAD !
:DDDD
Hell, super funny cans cans cans ! (:
he's shy wor ~~~ :DDDDD

after school,
me,stephanie,lilian,clarence&yuenian
were like . i-dont-know-where-to-go
the boys wanted to go pasirrispark, catch crabs again
while me&stephanie wanted to go whitesand.
got air-con ma
endup, went to whitesand :D

On our way up to foodcourt,
saw xinyi :D
& I wanted to sabo clarence.
so i shouted :
" XINYI ! CLARENCE SAY YOU CHIO "
then clarence's like ..
wth ?! ahahs :D
hyper funny la ~ (:
see xinyi's reaction, aum chuo ~

lunch'd at foodcourt.
lilian&clarence had chicken rice
while yuenian had his bigbig coke (:
me&stephanie .. were coping thier soup ! (:

TOU PAI (:


lilian (:




clarence

Jabez came ((:
Blahs , crapped.
stephanie saw her*
& we decided to make fun of her laaaaaa :D
asked Jabez to ask for her number.
:DDDD
VERY FUNNY LA !
I WAS LAUGHING LIKE HELL ! :D
jabez, you rock :D


Jabez come to my house la ~ (:
crapped,played :DD


his butt :DDD




went to find his friend after that.
i pei him okay ! (:
see, how nice right ?
yeahs, i know :D


I


LOVE


YOU

JayJaz <3
Im Loving You Like fuck la ~
can can can =l

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http://s20.photobucket.com/albums/b227/MRSmengZHE/?action=view¤t=22-09-06_1150.flv

http://s20.photobucket.com/albums/b227/MRSmengZHE/?action=view¤t=15-09-06_1707.flv


last chance =l
see can see anot.

& A VERY BIG BIG BIG BIRTHDAY TO

STEPHANIEKOHSHIHMIN ! (:

yeps, meeting steph later (:
downtowneast <3

sorry readers for not updating ! :D
downloading audition now (:
this is that video that i owe you guys.
TANLILIAN ! (:




took some pictures on wednesday
after school, while watching ROMEO&JULIET <3
heh, i wasnt actually paying much attention la.
cze .. im not in a good mood that day.
i was just there, lying on the table.
listening to guiji (:
but atleast, say a goodbye.
& i'll leave a smile (:


AVA room (:


took this out of boredom again :D
jiaqi's & mine :D
we were sitting on the same line la.
chicken mans, her leg is like so long la.
wth D:






ohmytian.
LOL, my eyes were like so swollen la.
all thanks to him


this one too =l



lilian skiped art on thursday (again)
& fabian guessed it right.
she came during PE
& wenhui very cute cans! (:
yeps, she & her red nose :DDDD
cute cute cute ! :D

DURING ENGLISH :D



((:
LILIAN & CLARENCE la
:DDD snatching over some stupid newspaper
lame ~




LILIAN'S & YUENIAN'S
& again,
snatching over some stupid newspaper.
they never grow up la ~

DURING MT (:
photography session :D

RU BEN .


PRESIDENT ! (:


aaaayie, he blocked me.
i was wanting to take this ...

:DD
alicia,manpang&aaron
o.O

accompanied lilian to BMS (:
yeahs, how nice right ? :DD
ahahs. & lilian was eversodumb ..
leak out some things, that's suppose to be a secret
:DDD
im smart im smart im smart ! (:
ended bms at 3
went to pasirrispark to find clarence&yuenian.
they were there .. catching crabs >< & i've just read stephanie's blog.
they went there too, ytd LOL -.-
hell , it was so darn scary la.
so many holes there & crabs were everywhere !
they were having fun, killing them.
tsktsk.
yuenian played golf
while clarence ... idontknow what he doing la.


clarence , yuenian :D




nice ? :D





& i pass'd Thursday.
Boy, i guess ..
this is truelove
i'll trust your everything from today onwards.
cze you've proven to me (:
iiex ll0rrve y0ohx :D


aaaaaayie ~! miss'd it D:
AGAIN !


i caught her ! (:




a little of gelin , daryl , yue nian & ru ben :D


:DDD
I LOVE THIS CANS ! (:


ever so cute (:




& tada
i won the war (:
victory to JoelynTanYiYing ! (:


gong gong gong ! :D

during homeroom,
mrlee calling those people who owe him BMS.
stepahnie,lilian,alicia,yuenian,clarence,fahan.
& like wth.
im alone D:
gelin,atiqah,daryl,shaowei,ru ben were playing true or dare.
so i joined in .
ahahs :D okay la.
i watched the fun :D

TIARA (:


daryl hugging tiara :DDDDDD


didnt went to hsc in the end D:
cleo's having her exams.
D: sadded cans.
so i went out with ahma ! :D




trained down to tampines with angxiuwei
aaaaayie, i forgot to take photo with her again D:
my mummy sms'd me ..
ordered me to reach home at 3
saying that she had some important stuffs to tell me.
okay, sua .
i reached home at 245
hell, fabian .. badmouth'd me.
like wth can.
he told my mum that i've been seeing one secfour guy
& told my mum that my friends have bad conduct& attitude
like wtf.
he's totally a bastard.
my friends doesnt have any bad conduct nor attitude.
fuck you la. they are always there for me cans.
making me go so crazy.
you dont know them, so dont ever judge them cans.
that secfour guy, is none other than siew cheewai
& she claims that i lied to her on thursday.
as i've no bms.
like .. wth again.
fabian say i dont have any bms.
i got luhs.
during assembly ,
me&lilian were "talking"
hell, he wasnt there.
& jiaowei ?
fuck him big.
dont believe me nevermind.
go ask the whole school see what they say la -.-
my mummy called cheewai up =l
my mum askd him if he's my bf anot.
like hell no -.-
she doesnt want to believe me.
suala, let her call.
& heng, he didnt say that i stead with richard la.
CHEEWAI, XIEXIE (:

im alr moodless.
6.45 , he ring (:
& im high again :DDD
this time, we talked alot :DD
more than before (:

love me like a romeo
care for me like im fragile
dote me like im your one&only